Kambua opens up on grief and healing three years after tragic loss
Kenyan gospel artist Kambua Manundu has, in a heartfelt Instagram post, bared her soul about the ongoing struggle she faces in coping with the loss of her newborn son, Malachi Manundu Muthiga Mathu.
The heart-wrenching incident occurred three years ago, leaving an indelible mark on the singer’s life.
Expressing her emotions on social media, Kambua revealed that she had experienced an unexpectedly tough day, causing a flood of grief triggers. Despite her outward composure, she confessed that her eyes often betrayed the inner turmoil she grapples with.
“Today has been a hard day, can you tell? 😅 I’m told that my eyes betray me…idk, sometimes I get grief triggers that I don’t anticipate and it feels like I’m free-falling, yet finding comfort in knowing that God will always catch me,” Kambua shared on her Instagram page.
Opening up about her profound connection with her late son, she reminisced, “I will forever live with the fact that I carried a baby that I never got to raise. Oh, but I loved him. I prayed for him. I sang for him. He knew how much his mama wanted him and I imagine he knew how much my heart broke when his stopped.”
The grieving mother explained that a video clip on her TikTok feed had triggered her emotions, depicting a father kissing his son’s casket during a burial ceremony. Kambua admitted that the video had left her emotionally undone, highlighting the ongoing impact of her grief.
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Reflecting on the unnaturalness of burying a child, Kambua acknowledged the difficulty in comprehending death’s purpose and inevitability. However, she emphasized her unwavering trust in God’s plan, even in the face of such a tragic loss.
“It feels so unnatural to bury a child- it’s not the ‘proper’ order of things, and yet, I trust the plan of God. I trust his sovereignty even when my human mind cannot wrap itself around death, its purpose, and its inevitability. Today my heart aches; but not only for myself,” Kambua wrote.
Concluding her heartfelt message, the artiste encouraged both herself and her followers, expressing that February would be a month dedicated to remembering the precious life she had lost. “Whether it comes in floods of tears or fits of laughter, I will take it,” she vowed.
Reaffirming her faith, Kambua concluded by invoking her Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, finding solace in the assurance of His presence. “He’s well acquainted with pain, he sings over me, he pours his healing balm over every gaping wound…it is the assurance of his presence that reminds me that, even here, even now, it is well with me. 🦋”